Changed is an understatement (or underword). My life has been turned up-side-down, puked on, peed on, pooped on, farted on, drooled on - you name the adjective and it will probably fit. My twin boys Ethan and Elijah were born 7 weeks ago and my life hasn't been the same since. I knew things would change, and that it was going to be hard, but I didn't expect the craziness that would ensue. Having twins makes dad step up a bit more in the initial phase of life. There is no way my wife could do it on her own. I admit that I was pretty sad after my boys were born for the first few weeks. I didn't adjust well and it was all a little overwhelming. I did't grow up with a dad in the house and had no idea how to be a dad. I was excited but not all the time. Now that I am adjust (sorta) - I see the joys of fatherhood shining through.
First, Having kids made me realize how selfish and depraved I am. Life didn't revolve around me and my wife anymore.
Second, having kids made me feel so much joy and fear at the same time. The thought is mind-numbing that I am in charge of raising these little guys and am responsible for them. Even though mind-numbing, what a joy it is to know that "Children are a blessing from the Lord." That I have been doubly blessed.
My outlook on life is total extreme excitement. I am so looking forward to the 'I love you's,' bear hugs, wrestling, camping trips, guys night out, man to man talks around a fire, getting excited about the little things in life again, and building forts. I am so excited and scared to death what the future holds. One thing is for sure -
Jer 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.